I don't know how to say the word "NO" nor will I reject you straight at the face because I don't know how to..
I just can't
I don't even say "NO" when I'm being asked to have break with my friends in school normally
Unless I really strongly disagree or object

It's just that, I can't put myself in a situation that I'm actually dating someone who is 18 (a few months younger though)yet his voice and the way he talks is so kiddish and he tends to start his every sentence with "L.O.L"..
Sound so Derrick..
And yes, I got turned off because of that
I knew him way before I actually know the "future fireman"
But our mode of communication is only through MSN and SMS that's all
We have not seen each other face to face before nor we have ever talked on the phone before
So last night was kind of sudden
Because I thought we can settle the time and date to meet through SMS as usual
But hell no...he called and I panicked for a little while before picking the phone
And that's how I know he has this kiddish voice

To be frank, he's actually a very nice guy
It's just that I don't go for younger guys even though we are of the same age because for sure we're gonna last for a few days and the most 2 months
I was kind of shock when he told me he liked me since we got to know each other
Well, maybe it's because I've rejected him after hanging up the phone last night
We're not meeting today anymore nor will I expect him to ask me again nor will I expect him to contact me (i guess, cos he seems kind of mad :S)
Well, at least I've pushed off the heavy stone off my heart and mind

Was damn pissed off when I got home last night
I seriously hate it when I have to get nagged the moment I stepped into the house everytime
Last night was worse
Because she's not even at home!
I shouldn't have called her...
Because the moment she picked up her phone, she started nagging like nobody's business
And she can nag some more when she got home and suddenly be nice to me in the middle of the night when she's about to get out of the house again to 'save her friend'.
I really don't know what's the other pleasant word to replace "insane" to describe her right now
Talking about responsibililties in the house..
Who's the one sacrificing her teen life to carry such a heavy burden at home right now?
She can jolly well sit on the sofa all day long watching TV, reading newspaper, eating melon seeds shaking her legs and job hopping everytime without thinking that she's actually out of the range of the given age stated on newspaper
I was being thoughtful by asking if I can work during weekends to lessen the burden
She said "NO"
Fine then.....

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