I can't understand you sometimes mummy.
Why do you have to be so fickle minded?
Why can't you make your own stand and stop getting influenced by the people around you?
You said as long as he loves and dotes me, you are fine with it and you shall close one eye about our religion difference
Now you said you are not okay with our relationship and even said all my aunts and uncles don't agree with it as well.
You started nagging and nagging non stop just because you heard the people around at your work place saying that it's a must for me to follow and there's nothing to discuss about
Mummy, don't ask me to let it go, because it's hard for me to let him go!
Why can't you just let me be
I will still be your good little girl you know?
You are making me starting to hate you and you know what?
Good girls can turn bad
Mummy, I don't want that to happen as you and I will be heartbroken
I know whether Daddy will agree with it or not is another story.
I know it mummy, it's not that I'm not mature enough to think of it.
I know what's going on.
I know what I'm doing and I'm still your good little girl
Good little girl have to grow up one day mama..
Just let me be will you..?
It's hard for me to let him go

Talking about my dad, I dreamt of him last night.
All three of us were at home doing the usual stuff we used to do at home and then, the door bell rang.
My sis opened up the door and there he stood, looking skinny and pale.
I ran to him and hugged him tightly with tears rolling down my cheeks, telling my dad how much I miss him

Damn..I really miss him..

Chinese New Year's Eve is really sucky for me this year..
The 'time of the month' is killing me
My mum disagree with our relationship and said that since we have not gone too deep, she asked me to stop and remain as just best friends unless he can convince his parents and both sides of our parents have talked
I hate you mummy....

I miss W34F..
I miss the times me, Dilah and Mahesh were lauging and joking around whether we are hanging out outside shool or in class..
I miss the time when me and Mahesh were singing on top of our lungs in the lift when nobody is around because we knew it's embarrassing to sing in front of others when we are not even good at singing..
I miss Ahmad, Amin and Azhiem fooling around in class making everyone laugh
I miss the noise in class
Never felt so important as a friend and as a classmate before....
I miss them...

I have no mood to wish everyone a Happy Chinese New Year this year..

@ 10:36 AM