Ooh-la-la...

2011-06-17T23:09:00.002+08:00

I like it when you're cheeky
I like it when you smile
I like it when you behave like a kid at times
I like it when you're full of nonsense
I like it when you're doing all sorts of funny actions
I like it when you make me laugh

*Grins*

2011-05-30T16:55:00.000+08:00

Hope it doesnt go wrong :)

2011-02-26T22:12:00.001+08:00

Just when I thought everything goes well

Would appreciate it if you could just tell me what is going on..

2011-02-15T22:03:00.002+08:00

I just hope whatever I've done so far is on the right track

I wish now

That there was a way

To redo my life.

Undo mistakes

Relive the moments

Fix the bad parts

And make them all better.

2011-02-07T20:15:00.002+08:00

I did all these purely for you and what you do is complaining you're tired the entire day

Do you have a choice? No.

I said you can go home and rest since you're SO tired..you said you don't mind, you want to catch a movie with me when we can actually cuddle each other and take a short nap at least..but there, you're still complaining you're tired even though you chose movie in the end.

Do you have a choice? Yes.

You asked me what drink I want when we entered Starbucks, I happily chose what I want because you said you could share it with me. Tea latte has milk content and I was the one drinking it after you claimed that you don't take milk.

Do you have a choice? Yes. But you just jolly well kept quiet and made me drink alone. And what did you say when i said you can voice out and we change another drink just now? You said "I don't need you to change for me"

How hurtful is that?

There I felt unhappy but I still have to fake a smile.

2011-02-04T23:32:00.001+08:00

Isn't she adorable?

Get to have a little "workout" at my uncle's place today..

Oh yes..my favourite Wii...

Our first CNY without grandpapa...

I miss him =(

2011-02-03T23:59:00.002+08:00

Tiring week I would say...

Manage to survive after the camp..

GOt back on Sunday..work on Monday as usual..

Got sick and super tired on Tuesday

Was looking forward to knock of on Wednesday because it's half day and walah..

CNY is here..

Oh yes...first day of CNY..and as usual..nothing special

I don't want my holidays to end so fast!!

2011-01-24T21:19:00.002+08:00

Can I still tolerate the nonsense they give me?
Oh god..I seriously need a stress ball..

On a lighter note, I hope this coming camp would be enjoyable.
Which means...my weekends would be gone

2011-01-23T01:10:00.002+08:00

You by the light

Is the greatest find

In a world

Full of wrong

Your the thing thats right

You set it again

My hearts in motion

Every word feels like a shooting star

Im at the edge of my emotions

Watching the shadows burning in the dark

The way I blush when I think of you

The way I smile when I remember your words

The way I wanna go to bed early

Just so I can dream of you

The way I wanna hold your hand

The way my heart beats faster

And the way I feel when I imagine you with me

I'm just like every other girl

Who's ever wanted to be held by someone else

And I'm just like every story

Hoping for a love-filled ending

Because I'm human too

And I somehow still feel

After all I've been through

I still feel love

Already sharing our life stories

I'm not alone anymore

And I love you

2011-01-21T23:24:00.002+08:00

Changed...
Everything has changed.
And I like it.
I won't live in the past nor will I stay stagnant and wait for things to happen.
Just hope i can make it constant.
I used to have my reasons for keeping my blog stagnant and it's been a year.
I should move on.

2011-01-20T21:30:00.000+08:00

I wish I could smile without feeling the guilt of faking happiness

2010-11-21T20:59:00.002+08:00

It's been more than a month ever since I started working here

I've already seen all sorts of irritating people

Will I be able to tolerate still?

Oh well..

So long as I can have my life back..

Oh yes, I'm slowly finding bits and pieces of my life now and in a process of piecing them together..

Hope it goes well..

2010-11-04T19:14:00.002+08:00

So many things happened recently and it made me feel empty all of a sudden

All I can do everyday is to wake up at 0530, start work at 0730 and end work at 1700..

Good if I have stuff to do..

Bored if I have nothing, because time will crawl super slowly..

What else?

If any one of my dearests is free, probably have dinner with them and maybe a movie before heading home...

That's Monday to Friday

What about Saturday? I'll have to try my luck every week if anyone asks me out

Otherwise it will be a stay-at-home program

Sunday is none other than "family day"

I'm still trying to adapt to this new job and I'm trying very hard..

It's like...back to school days...

People goes to school to study while I go to school to work..

Oh yes, I'm unlucky enough to get bitten by this virus bug call dengue

Dont remind me of it -.-

2010-09-27T00:29:00.000+08:00

I'm sick of my wardrobe..

I'm sick of my life..

I'm sick of staying at home...

2010-09-25T23:49:00.003+08:00

They made me wanna get a...a...

Hell yea...

I've been home since Wednesday and it's driving me crazy...

Can my life get any boring?

2010-09-19T02:06:00.000+08:00

Oh great...

I'm so going to relax when I'm in Phuket...

I simply can't wait :)

2010-09-16T00:36:00.002+08:00

I'm so glad

So glad at the fact that I'm able to play my trombone once more..

Oh yes, I miss it alot..

As expected, my stamina dropped..

My dear junior is so "nice" to dump me with first part scores and asked me to play

I'll remember that for sure...

Looking at the state of the band gives me heartaches..

It reflects our efforts going down the drain and so is our reputation..

Why can't they just maintain it at least?

Anyway, on a random note...

A lady called from Greenridge Primary..asking if I'm still interested in the Allied Educator position..

Well..hell yea...I told her I am..

So I"m asked to head down Westspring Secondary for an interview...

Err...yea...called from Greenridge Pri...and asked to go Westspring Sec for interview..

Weird..

OH well..just hope for the best...

2010-09-10T23:23:00.002+08:00

Oh yes, freedom..and I notice I haven been updating this darn thing
For those who are still reading this (which I doubt so), I've resigned!
Yes! Finally!
Thought of holding a period of time longer but that potato chip issue just happen to trigger my resignation letter..
Not just me but two of my other colleagues are joining me as well.
I'm so happy now..
Everyday seems like Tuesday for me
For those who didn't know, Tuesday was my usual off day..
I have to work six days a week..how miserable can my life be?
Never mind never mind..like I've said..I'm free now...

Oh well, after working for 5 months, I've gained some working experience and also, seen two types of shady people..
One is doing it openly and that made us hate him alot..another one is doing it covertly..treating everyone nicely and at the same time shady..
The one doing it openly is none other than my boss..I don't want to talk about it already..
However, the one doing it covertly, I must have a say..
She's the ultimate bitch of all bitches I'm telling you
Treating us like best friend which we don't appreciate it..
Boasting about her family's income status when we don't even have the patient and interest to know
She loves to involve herself when we're mentioning someone..
She loves to stir up shit to make herself so freaking useful to the company..
She loves to twist stories to confuse each and everyone of us..
Last but not least, she thinks she's a drop dead diva..holy shit..

Thank god, we're not going to see her anymore..

Now, the boss......
Is going to...
Go one corner...
And suck thumb...
Because...
Apart from the part timers..
Cleaner Auntie is his only full timer now..
*evil laughter*

Oh by the way..
I'll be heading to Phuket on the 19th!!!!

2010-07-18T00:11:00.002+08:00

This emotion of mine will be locked for now..
No one will ever take advantage of me..ever again
I shall be cold and don't blame me for that..
Unless you can prove to me, you're worth it

2010-07-07T21:59:00.001+08:00

Retard boss sacked her..

Thinking that I can do this all on my own..

He's wrong

I'm dying.....

2010-06-29T00:02:00.002+08:00

I dont need no ring..
I dont need anything..
Cos you and me..found something pretty neat ;D

2010-06-12T21:17:00.002+08:00

I want to rant I want to rant I want to rant about you you you!
In every area you plan to do and what you do disgust all of us.
I would suggest you to throw away that nonsense psychology book thingy because it's not doing you any good
Creating unnecessary conversation is not going to bond with us
Hiding your temper is not going to make us like you
Where were you when we need permission to proceed?
Why are you here when we find you irritating?
CCTV is your best friend but it's not our best friend

I want to have a say I want to have a say I want to have a say about you you you!

You make me feel loved once more ;D

2010-06-07T00:34:00.002+08:00

I realised I can't sit still for long...
Therefore, I can't tolerate sitting down for ten hours for five consecutive days doing just admin stufff.
My butt will grow roots I'm telling you..
Please give me something new to do!!
However, I love weekends..
Because of june holidays, I get to off on weekends ;D

2010-05-31T00:08:00.002+08:00

The silence in here shows how tired, annoyed and busy I am to update this beloved blog
Oh yes..
When I'm all of the above mentioned, I won't feel like updating even when I have many things to rant about
And will it always be boss boss and still boss..
Yes..it will always be him
I don't understand why he has to be like this..
Lack of security?
I somehow pity his girlfriend...
Lack of trust over his workers is not going to be productive in terms of producing materials for him and bonding between us and him
How long can I still survive?

Where should I go if i want to further my studies?
What should I do?

I'm given an opportunity to teach in a few months' time
I want to and I would love to..
But will my path be smoother once we merge with maths hub?
I doubt so..
All I can do it cross my fingers

2010-05-17T00:49:00.002+08:00

I don't like to think it is true

That distance came between us like a knife you cut right through

Where did we go wrong and let it all undo?

The only one I ever loved was you

Would you stay just a little, my love

Would you sway just a little, my love

Because the hole in the middle of my heart needs filling up

If you stay just a little, that's enough

It kills me as I lay awake at night

Remembering the last kiss that we shared doesn't feel right

Is it impossible for me to win this fight?

Keep you a little longer in my life

Would you stay just a little, my love
Would you sway just a little, my love
Because the hole in the middle of my heart needs filling up
If you stay just a little, that's enough

This song will be in my head for as long as I can possibly store from now onwards and it can really affect one's mood..

2010-05-03T23:51:00.002+08:00

I can see cobwebs in my blog already..

I have so much to say regarding my job, my life, yet my mind is blank..how contradicting is that?

Many people pissed me off here and there..

But apparently, I just want this particular person to get out of my life now.

Yes, you know who you are...

I won't want to entertain your nonsense ever again

2010-04-19T00:18:00.002+08:00

When you're still stuck in RP..

You wished you could get out of that school as soon as possible because:

You were sick of PBL..

You were sick of PP

You were sick of the faci you dislike

You were sick of certain classmates you dislike

You were of doing two FYPs in one academic year

Now that you have stopped schooling..

Now that you have found a full time tiring job which is so time consuming

You wished to go back to school

You wished you could go for another alternative, which is going to uni as soon as you have enough money...

How irony...

How absurd...

We will never be satisfied with our lives in other words..

In your mind, you keep telling yourself it's for the sake of having a stable income..

On the other hand, your mind keep telling you to stop..

And whenever the word "boss" comes to your mind, you will think of a pile of shit

Wow...

2010-04-03T00:36:00.002+08:00

What am I going to do?
I'm tired...I really am..
With weird working hours like this as an admin
With cocked up colleagues and task allocation...
With Chef asking me to go back to help out these few days at Jalapeno Pepper Express..
I guess...I may have meet my limits..
Yes..I'm sick and worn out..

And my social life is gone...

2010-03-25T01:19:00.002+08:00

Thanks for being my lovely colleagues..
You know who you are...heh heh
I'm gonna miss all of you..

Oh yes..Phylis has found a new full time job..
Bye bye to Jalapeno Pepper Express :)
Hello to my new job...

2010-03-19T00:53:00.001+08:00

I want to get those happy pills..
Oh yes..
I can't let you affect me all the time..
Arguments after arguments..I'm sick of it..

Anywayyy.....
Watched Alice in Wonderland with Hannah dearest
Yea..it's rather nice..but the ending left me go "huh?"
Thanks for the presents dearie...I love it :)

2010-03-16T00:44:00.002+08:00

Alright, my patience on you is running freaking thin right now...
What exactly do you want mister!
So you think you have been compromising all the time..
Well, think again..
Just use your tiny little pea-brain to think
Think harder dude!

2010-03-15T01:08:00.002+08:00

Oh yes..it's my birthday and I feel "woman-ish"
I've turned 20!!

For those who tried to ruin my celebration today..all I can say is..
TRY HARDER BITCH
You're just showing all of us that you're being foolish when you said we're being foolish..
Say all you want..it's not going to affect me

2010-03-07T17:31:00.002+08:00

No, no, I, I, I, I, I don't want to break when I speak
I don't want to shake while I'm standing
I don't want to crawl into another hole
I don't know what I'm hiding for
Because I'm diabetic-ally sweetened by your words
I can't help it but *grins*

I won't know it's going to be short term again
I won't know they're lies or not..
But..who cares?
I don't care anymore..
I just want to enjoy the every moment I have for now
Oh yes...I do and I will...

2010-03-03T18:04:00.002+08:00

When things unexpectedly happen..
I just wish I could go back time and undo the things I've done..
So that I will know what to do and handle it properly right now..

Then again..
Whenever things happen..
We only know how to say "if only I..."

We're just...stupid at times...

2010-02-28T17:42:00.002+08:00

A little get together really made my trip worthwhile..
Oh yes...from one side to the other side of Singapore yo!
Should do this more often though..
Thanks Azimah for the lunch and......scanner...
Yes..all thanks to MOE -.-

2010-02-27T22:09:00.002+08:00

Freaking annoyed with you people..
You're a "senior" over there so what?
You have more experience so what?
And now you think you know ALL the stuff there?
If you do, you won't damage the punch card machine.
Stop trying to act smart, A
Two-faced bitch

And B, brush up your English first before you scold me back..

2010-02-22T18:07:00.001+08:00

I am growing up and I always will be
A number proves nothing because no matter what, I'll always grow up
I'm turning 20 soon
I can drive
I can vote
Inside however, I wished I could be a little girl again who wishes for the return of an easy life of primary school or secondary school
I wished I could turn back time and head back to the time when I was 10 years old, who cried when my granny departed
I'm afraid my heart won't change..
I am still the girl who needs a hug and a chance to cry.
Moving forward only adds on another age.

One of the sad things about growing up is watching those around me grow old
Watching parents, grandparents, friends grow old
Like a forgotten photograph suddenly found at the bottom of a dusty, loft-bound box, rememeber what they used to be like, what they were.

I used to cry myself to sleep, knowing that those people I love could never be with me, knowing that I'll still be stuck in that school for a period of time
But now I realise that I had growing up to do.
And yes, I'm looking at things in wider dimensions now..
I can no longer rely on someone too long.

Just by talking to someone who is just a year younger can tell that I've grown up
My perspectives are different from them now.

I used to leave problem as it is
Waiting for it to get better by itself
But now, I look for reasons behind and start "repairing" the problem
I realise that I will not get angry first until I find the explanation is absurd
I guess it's part of growing up..

2010-02-21T01:25:00.000+08:00

Of all the people..
Why did you appear in my dream?!

2010-02-20T16:32:00.002+08:00

Traveling half of Singapore to meet a dear friend is worth it...
I just love the time we spend together eating KFC at some "ulu" mall and chatting all the way
Up next..?
MOVIE MARATHON! ;D

2010-02-18T01:20:00.000+08:00

I'm sick and tired of everything -.-

2010-02-15T22:29:00.000+08:00

She said it all for me....

2010-02-14T01:48:00.002+08:00

It's been 3 years...
Oh yes..3 years..
I finally get to spend my new year with my dad once more..
Mum and dad got home from work, picked us up and head to Giant for shopping last night..
As usual..dad always lighten up the atmosphere with his nonsense jokes..

Mum: so far..your passenger didn't ask you to turn on the radio ar?
Dad: got.I told them I haven't hire a singer yet...

Because his taxi doesn't have a radio..

Sis: huh?? press the "on" button ma..
Dad: I give you $50 if you manage to find the button for me -.-

Oh yes..before I leave..

Happy new year everyone..and to all lovebirds...happy valentine's day :)

2010-02-12T20:46:00.001+08:00

I'm....i'm....
I'm..
I'm....
I...
Am...

DONE WITH RP!!!!

;D

2010-02-11T17:10:00.002+08:00

I can't believe my eyes when u typed "I don't know" on msn last night
I'm completed lost and confused
That was the second last thing I would want to get from you
Sometimes I wished I never ask
Then I can stay ignorant
But I know that some things I hate will always revolve around me sooner or later even though I prefer them to be left unsaid..

But now I know...

2010-02-08T13:36:00.002+08:00

Music blasting in my ears...
But I was in deep thoughts..

2010-02-07T16:33:00.001+08:00

-Fuckingdepressed-

2010-02-07T00:46:00.003+08:00

Trapped

2010-02-05T19:43:00.003+08:00

I can't believe I'm going to say bye bye to PBL that soon..
3 years in RP is like 3 months..
People who were in W46D '07, W34F '07/08, E55g '08, E54N '08/09, E25C '09, E55H '09, E55M '09, E24J' 09/10 and E44L '09/10..you guys are remembered..
Those whom I strongly like to strongly dislike...nice to meet you people and have you as my classmates

People I should mention:
Debra, Amni, Kay, Luvina, Nelson, Cyril and Dexter in my W46D class...my first bunch of classmate in RP.
Dilah, Mahesh, Cheng Wei, Rulan, Nicholas, Ahmad and Azhiem in my W34F class...
Mai, Jeannie, Aiman, Lynnette, Siti, Jie Shi in E54N...
Terence, Farah, Teresa from E55G and E54N
Ting Yang, Firdaus, Suhaimi in E55G, E54N, E44N..
Azimah, Beverly in E55G, E54N, E44L, E24J..

You guys are dearly missed..
Love you people :)

Gonna do my last RJ in RP...

2010-02-04T15:11:00.001+08:00

2010-02-03T21:35:00.002+08:00

I was very sure that I am angry with you
But whenever we get to speak to one another, the anger just vanish..
How is that possible..?

And whenever you apologize, it seems like I've already forgiven you even before you mention the word "sorry"..
How is that possible as well?

Will you take me for granted because of this?

2010-02-02T12:48:00.002+08:00

Sorry that you're not in the mood to talk about anything?
Just want to be left alone?
Then why ask in the first place?
Why care in the first place?
Is it because you think you're my close friend, that's why you should ask?
If you don't bother...then don't bother to ask as well..

Come on man, at least he still contact you even when he's far away..
What about mine?
Even when he's near, he doesn't do that at all
I'm frustrated enough

Oh well, seems like it's redundant to share you're problems with anyone even your close friends
That what I've learned ever since I enter poly..
Because no matter how detailed you explain how you feel inside
They won't understand still because they're not in your shoes..
They're not the one who are going through what you've gone through
So no matter how detailed you explain, they won't understand even though they say they do
They're not even in the situation
So to me, it's redundant to share..
Rather keep it in my heart and if I were to die one day..let it be..
Since you guys said it's bad for the health if we bottle up things too much
Yea, I do agree that because even a simple looking glass bottle will overflow when you pour too much water inside
Everything has its limits.
Everybody die in the end...
So don't try to care..don't even bother to ask..because what you get in the end is just disappointment..

2010-02-01T18:35:00.001+08:00

Living my life full of uncertainty really sucks big time..
It's so unpredictable..
The world around me..the people around me..and the one I love..
So unpredictable..

Don't leave me hanging please..

2010-01-31T01:23:00.002+08:00

I fucking hate you people..
Firstly, I'm not boy crazy..
Secondly, I don't think I'm even pretty..
But one thing I'm very very sure is..I'M SKINNIER THAN YOUR GF..that is what I can show off about
So stop bitching about others when we have so much things to bitch about you and your gf

And UNKERRRR ARR....YOU THINK YOU VERY HANDSOME?
An uncle with a belly...showing off his horn skills...

And another thing..
I'm not even a cow
So stop saying I'm a cow eating young grass..
I'm not even available..
He's my junior who stays near me..is it wrong to go home together?
And besides, what's wrong with hanging out with guys?

You know what?
Fuck you people...fuck you..
I had enough

2010-01-30T01:39:00.002+08:00

That's the reason why I don't want to get involved..
That's the reason why I don't give a damn..
Because I've been there and done that before..I know how it feels to be in it
Air-headed people always exist..
What wrong with you people?
Complaining stress all the time...
Complaining pain everywhere...
Then why are you getting fatter?
Aren't you suppose to get skinnier?
Don't give contradicting statements because I might surprise you with my size 8 shoes..
And what is there for me to show off..
I have nothing to show off about..
There's one thing I can show off about..
I'm skinnier than your girlfriend..

I miss you boy..

2010-01-28T01:08:00.001+08:00

I love youuuuuuuuuuuuuu.... :)

2010-01-26T23:48:00.002+08:00

Phylis didn't manage to donate her blood today!
Angry!
Because I do not have enough iron in my blood!
Yes, and my finger got pricked for nothing..
Just hate the stinging feeling after it got pricked during the blood test...
I've made it through the veins checking...
I've made it through the medical screening part..
It's because of the blood test..
God..
And I was given iron pills...
I'm advised to take it ten days before my next session if I wish to donate my blood..
Damn...I thought today would be my first time...

2010-01-26T02:37:00.000+08:00

Awww......
Diabetically sweet :)

2010-01-25T22:39:00.002+08:00

I'm so disgusted by your actions and your naive thinking
Reading your post makes me want to laugh at your stupidity once more
Stop making a mockery out of yourself
Why feel insecure?
Afraid that karma would come knocking on your door?
Oh my G..I just can't wait for that to happen you know..
Because you just don't know when to stop
Looks like you won't know what you've done
Continue to be naive then..
Make me laugh more..no..make ALL OF US laugh more..
Be the clown of the year and the next and the year after next...
Karma oh karma, I've laid red carpet and put a "welcome" sign for you...
Waiting for your arrival :)
Yes, call me evil...but you know she deserves it..

2010-01-24T21:29:00.002+08:00

Yearning for freedom...
But I don't want to turn 20 yet...
How?
I'm graduating soon..but am I ready to face the fact that I'll be a working adult?
Obviously I won't be going to uni first..
I can't wait to leave RP, yet I was afraid to face the cruel world..
How?
What is it going to be like?

2010-01-24T01:28:00.002+08:00

I'm sick and tired of having cramps every month..
It happens after a year or two when I first had it..can imagine how many times I have to go through this darn thing
I'm sick and tired of living in this noisy house..
Have been living under the same roof with her since I was borned..365 days times 19 years
I'm sick and tired of school..
Started school since I was 4..how many years now? About 16 years..But then again, when I enter the working world, how is it going to be like?
I'm sick and tired of some people in my life..
Some fortunately just come and go...some just can't stop clinging on to me like an annoying bug
I'm sick and tired of waiting..
How many minutes have I waste to wait for something/someone...god..19 years...can you imagine that?

2010-01-21T16:30:00.002+08:00

Why is it always Clive?
Is it on purpose or what?
Why must it be him assessing our fyp presentation????
Looks like I can't run away from him huh?
My Professional Profiling presentation was him who assess me
My FYP last semester was him as well...
Who's he? My Leisure Issues and Organizations module faci!
Holy moo moo -.-

2010-01-20T17:25:00.001+08:00

2010-01-20T01:59:00.002+08:00

This silence is killing me.
Sometimes a lack of sound is tranquil...
But as i lay here, moldering in my bed, I'd give anything to break the silence.
My greatest fear is my own mind.
I can't hide from my own thoughts.
This silence is deafening...
Filled with pain and obscure thoughts trying to consume me into a void of melancholy.
The silence continues...
and my thoughts begin to devour me.
I find myself in a completely different dimension.
When i stand up, it feels surreal that I've even moved.
I'm still in that goddamn bed...
I'm paralyzed by my own thoughts...
I could have been great. how did this happen?
What's wrong with me?
Why am i so afraid of love?
The most accurate conclusion I've come to is that all of the wretched circumstances I've encountered in my life have destroyed me.
Every time i reach for something, it vanishes like smoke before I can even touch it.
I try to be optimistic... but the silence nullifies my joy.
As soon as i think I'm out, I fall right back into this pit of hopelessness.
Something please break the silence...

2010-01-19T00:19:00.001+08:00

Mummy: Forgot to ask you to buy toilet paper when you went NTUC today, tomorrow before you go out, you go and buy ok?
Me: -.- Buy back the same brand?
Mummy: Ya..this is cheaper...
Me: But so thin
Mummy: Ya lor, it's thin...but got flower prints..very nice :S
Me: -.-" As if those flowers will be printed on your ass after you use

2010-01-18T01:16:00.002+08:00

We were strangers starting out on our journey
Never dreaming what we'd have to go through
Now here we are and I'm suddenly standing
At the beginning with you ;D

It was pretty complicated at first..
And I'm glad we made it through..
Thanks for your patience, ILY

2010-01-12T17:04:00.000+08:00

I just love the lyrics

2010-01-11T15:28:00.001+08:00

Satifaction..just like this boy with candy floss ;D
Yes...I've done with my report like....FINALLY!!

2010-01-10T00:54:00.002+08:00

School just reopened and I'm already so tired.
Come on Phylis...5 more weeks!

I have to get my report done as soon as possible..
I really wonder..
Is there a reason why I have to drag this report for so long?
I used to get it done within a week or so for my PP two years back and my first FYP last semester
What happen to this report?
Bloody idiot Phylis, get it done la!

I seriously need motivation..

2010-01-02T01:15:00.002+08:00

Happy new year everyone..
Yea...2010...that's fast
Though it's a new year..everything still stay the same
Buildings, cars, roads and everything still stay the same..
Nothing new at all...
Those people whom, for some reason, you don't talk to anymore still don't want open their golden mouth to talk
Mother still as naggy as ever..
Sister still as irritating as ever..
But I'm glad my good friends are still here.. x years and still counting :)

Many many many things happened in the year 2009..
And I suppose, last year was the worst year I had..
More of the bad stuff happen rather than the good stuff
Arguments, quarrels, misunderstandings, separations and those friends who come and go..
But at the same time, I'm happy that I get to know many friends this year and to name a group, it would be my lovely colleagues

For the year 2010..I want to make a change
Yes, a change
I wont be nice anymore..
*Only applicable to selective people

-thankyouverymuch-

2009-12-26T00:10:00.002+08:00

My lappy died on me once more

Yes, second time this year

This heartless darn thing just wouldn't cooperate with me

Come on man, I'm left with just five weeks of school after the holidays -.-

Stupid repairman doesn't know whether to charge me or not

I wanted him to answer me on the spot so that I know what to do with that darn thing..

If he's going to charge me..I'll jolly well throw it away..No point repairing it again because I rather get a new one

"Since it the warranty only exceed a few days..I'll see if we can close one eye for this ok? Can't promise"
Holy moo moo

When is my UT?
4th jan...

Repair status for my lappy?
STILL UNDER REPAIR!!

Oh My G!

2009-12-17T02:12:00.004+08:00

I used to have imaginary friends when I was little..
I liked to play Pretend all by myself and occasionally, with my childhood friends
That was when my sister's still 'swimming'..
And I wish she's still 'swimming' -.-

I can imagine all kinds of things..
And my imaginary friend will always be different

I used to play all sorts of games with my childhood friends..
Many insane games..

I used to think unrealistic things...
Different kinds of nonsense each day...

I will never fail to look out for patterns and unusual things when I'm bored...
Anywhere and anything...

I will talk to myself when I'm alone...
My mum used to have weird thoughts about me..
And I rather stay that way and be the only child and let her have weird thoughts all the time

Because I believe..I will still be fine even when I'm old...

*bow*
thankyouverymuch

2009-12-15T15:12:00.001+08:00

I..

feel

like

cutting

my hair -.-

2009-12-12T00:10:00.002+08:00

Thanks to dear Beverly....
This song really match my mood, what I'm thinking and all

If I walk would you run
If I stop would you come
If I say you’re the one would you believe me
If I ask you to stay would you show me the way
Tell me what to say so you don’t leave me
The world is catching up to you
while your running away to chase your dream
Its time for us to make a move cause we are asking one another to change
and maybe im not ready

CHORUS
but im trying for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
we’ve been hiding enough

if I sing you a song would you sing along
or wait till im gone , oh how we push and pull
if I give you my heart would you just play the part
or tell me it’s the start of something beautiful
am I catching up to you
while your running away , to chase your dreams
its time for us to face the truth cause we are coming to each other to change
and maybe im not ready

CHORUS
but im trying for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
we’ve been hiding enough

I will try for your love
I can hide up above

2x Huh huhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh huh huhhh

If I walk would you run
If I stop would you come
If I say you’re the one would you believe me

2009-12-10T20:15:00.003+08:00

Mummy tells daddy:
Lucky I have only two daughters...otherwise this house will turn into an internet cafe..
Always face their lappies..

Daddy replies:
Lucky I have one wife...otherwise this house will turn into coffee shop...she always go coffee shop hang out with her friends...

2009-12-08T00:11:00.002+08:00

Oh hoho...I can finally breathe!
No more practices..just go whenever I can and no one's gonna control my attendance...
I'm not that evil though...
I know my dear Daphne needs help..

Christmas!!
Yes...have been touching my saved up pay for presents...
Gonna work harder to cover up what I've spent..have been spending too much and earning too little

Anyway, don't ever try snowflake ice cream with lavendar flavour
It tasted like...like...air freshener!
My dad was saying.."since they're so 'creative' inventing such nonsense..no surprise if they're gonna invent mosquito coil flavour"
HAHAHA!

My dad can be as nonsensical as ever..
Eating out with him really brightens up my day and laugh non stop..
There's one time, my sis is trying to save the egg yolk from breaking because she wanted to enjoy chewing it when the entire thing is in her mouth with watery yolk
She asked, "I'm thinking how to save the egg yolk leh papa"
My dad was like, "right click, then click 'save yolk as' then choose which folder you want to save the yolk"

2009-12-01T14:36:00.002+08:00

Thank god it's over..
Been waiting for this day to come...now I'm at ease...
I can now concentrate on my lessons, fyp...and maybe go back to RPWS when I feel like it..
Last but not least...work..
Haven been working much and I want to go back even though I'm feeling a little lazy

Yesterday's concert was a bomb..
Didn't know the respond would be good after the singing for Christmas Finale
Or did everyone know what we're preparing for the last encore?

Oh well..past few days had been drainy and hell...
Ya..and I said hell...
Muscle aching..having headaches two nights back after the practice..
Throat is abit sore and now I sound like a boy going through puberty stage..
Yes..the squeaking and squealing moments for boys when they're about to break their voice..
My butt bone is hurting...all thanks to the table..
Intense practice on sat and sun..have been sitting on the table with legs on the chair almost the entire day

Well, it's worthwhile though...at least the concert ended with a bang..

2009-11-27T15:43:00.002+08:00

This whole idea is a mistake..
It's totally wrong..
Why did I stupidly agree to it..
This whole thing is really pointless..
Why must I be so helpful?
What will I gain?
Every single practice my dad has to come all the way to yew tee to wait for me and my sis to end our practice..
And he never fails to help me carry my trombone from yew tee to home..
And because of this whole thing..friendship lost..
It's really stupid

2009-11-25T18:56:00.001+08:00

One word...

Tired

Maybe two more words...

Sick and tired...

2009-11-24T23:13:00.002+08:00

I find that some of my close friends are either busy with their girlfriends/boyfriends or don't bother to remember which day I'm available and still thinking of asking me to go out on the days I'm not free

A thought strike my mind whenever I visit Regent band...
"Come back for what? Worth to help or not?" -.-

-notinthemoodrightnowthankyouverymuch-

2009-11-23T17:33:00.003+08:00

Just when I attend today's practice, my conductor wasn't here to witness my attendance -.-
Another lovely conductor took over him today and her comments are as nonsense as ever..

Sec 1 boy: Ms Low, can I go to the toilet..
Ms Low: Yes..go...and did you cut your hair?
Sec 1 boy: ya?
Ms Low: I think the edges of the bowl from the auntie's salon is abit chipped ar....cut until so unbalance..

Holy moo moo....

2009-11-22T00:35:00.002+08:00

I agreed to join doesn't mean I can attend every single practice..
I went back twice this week, why did you say I've been missing for quite some time?
Come on man, people have lessons to attend, fyp to do, busy with their own band (before the reflections concert and quintet performance)...
Because of this, I can only work four days this month...this freaking month...and my pay will be the lowest I've ever get for this freaking month..
Oh goddd...why did I even agree to play in the first place?
I'm responsible enough to practice my own parts ok -.-
Work on your own band...they are the ones who need more help..

2009-11-13T20:05:00.003+08:00

Have been busy these two weeks and I won't get to say "thank god it's friday" because, I won't be enjoying on weekends either.
What have I been doing?
Intense practice for concert which was held on the 7th of November and at the same time, I was juggling with FYP stuff, school lessons, Regent band practice(which I have to only attend on Saturday only due to my tight schedule) and UTs
Well, thanks to all who have attend the concert, hope you guys enjoy it
I have to visit five gyms for my FYP...
Namely, Toa Payoh, Tampines, Yio Chu Kang, Yishun and Woodlands
Currently I'm left with Toa Payoh...
Gotta finish it quick and get on with report!
Lessons, as usual...
So far, I only went for one practice in Regent and their concert is 30th Nov!
Am I able to cope it?
UTs..three UTs...finally over...
Work? Needless to say...I don't even have time to work...
Some nonsense colleague of mine still have the cheek to ask why

Bring back, oh bring back, oh bring back my free time to me....to me!

2009-11-09T18:49:00.003+08:00

I really don't know how thick skin you both can get..
I wish I could just hand you both a skin peeler each..
You think the main reason is because of that?
After reading both of your entries, I can't help it but to laugh at your stupidity
You guys think things are so simple?
Come on man..you think she can't move on because of you?
So thick skin ar..
You both don't even know the main reason behind why she's reacting this way
Eh boy, you think she ignore your girlfriend mainly because of you?
Nothing to do with you ok..she had moved on long before you know it
Air-headed people just love to assume things

Miss your ex section mate alot huh?
I know why...because you're alone now...and you think she doesn't know?
Grow up la girl

Pardon me..I'm too angry..that's why I post it out..
And it's my blog mind you

2009-11-06T00:44:00.000+08:00

If you think your friend's birthday party is more important..go ahead...
I'm won't hold on to your leg and drag you to my concert..
That's it...I had enough...
I don't want to give a damn anymore

2009-11-02T23:56:00.002+08:00

Looking at her laughing helplessly at the situation makes me feel helpless as well..
I don't know what to do to help..
All I can do is to be there for her and listen when she needs a pair of listening ears
As a friend, it hurts me to see her like this

Oh god..I really wish karma can come right now..
And fall upon this heartless person..
I want her to lose everything...
I want her to regret what she had done
Oh man, I'm so angry right now I feel like doing what I feel like doing to her all at once..
I'll pray hard..
Very very hard for karma to come knocking on her door

Oh god, please please please bless this helpless friend of mine
Her life is hard enough..

2009-11-02T01:26:00.002+08:00

Oh yea...Went back to Regent on Saturday..
Decided to join them for concert this time round..
Stupidly decided though...
Knowing that I have FYP to do (yea...haven't start)
Knowing that RPWS concert is near
Knowing that I have classes when they have practices..

Oh well...
My first session with my juniors

Pictures were taken by Terrell :)

2009-10-29T00:29:00.002+08:00

What a way to stereotype bandies...
Not all of us are rich ok -.-
Damn....what logic is this..

I'm happy with what I have right now..yes..my good friends around me...
At least I'm not forgotten :)

Yuting bothered to ask if I'm free to have dinner together

Azimah bothered to chat with me at the canteen before she meets her boyfriend after school

Had short NTUC outing with Yvonne when we met few days back

My lovely colleague and good friend, Shaiful, who bothered to help me even when he's tired and best of all, even when he's not working on that day

Zak, who knows I have difficulty saving up for PSP, willing to get one for me on Christmas if possible and we can talk about almost anything every single day

Hannah, who still knows I'm still there for her, even when we're don't talk too often, to listen what she has to say

And some other friends who took they busy schedule off for awhile just to ask how's my day through sms...

I can't help it but... *grins*

2009-10-23T21:34:00.002+08:00

Justin: Look at my group today, all crazy people
Phylis: Haha, so yesterday's group was better?
Justin: Ya, but you're not here leh...all the burden goes to my shoulder leh. Life without Phylis is like a guy without pants

What analogy is that?!
Of all the things...pants?
Creative or what?

2009-10-21T00:17:00.004+08:00

Like always, people just follow their decision which they think it's right..
Like always, there're advises and opinions around..
Sometimes, people still stubbornly follow their own thinking...

You, yes you, look at what you've done?
See that? I am the last to laugh today
Though I'm not a good player, I still know very well that we're not blending well, we're not well rehearsed, we've not start our practice..
So what if we've played so many times?
You think we're good?
To be honest, we suck big time..
You only blend with your section partner, but have you ever thought that we don't blend together at all?
Told you it's a bad idea to accept, you just wouldn't listen
So what if the rest approve?
They don't think the same way as me..
Let me tell you this..
The person who initiated brass quintet won't want to play as well if he knows what is going on and if he's free today
Don't think that because I'm not as good as you, you think it's redundant to hear my opinion

See? I was right..you all screwed up..
Well done man...a round of applause
So much for the image

2009-10-13T23:51:00.002+08:00

It's been a long time after so long...
Finally get to meet up with dearest Yuting today..
Had our meal together and get her boyfriend's gift wrapped up before we head our separate ways..
As we were about to bid farewell, Yvonne was spotted...
That small little noisy nonsense...getting darker each time -.-
And hoho..both of their boyfriends are stuck in NS...

Hope we have more outings together :)

Kind of miss those days

2009-10-12T20:54:00.005+08:00

Little girls playing dress up!
Haha...yeah...was out with Azimah
Dresses attracted us....tempted us to try them on (without buying)
Yeah..we both squeezed into one small fitting room and try those dresses..

I particularly like this dress..so I took the details of the dress as well

2009-10-11T16:39:00.002+08:00

One disadvantage for staying somewhere you're not familiar with especially other country:
you'll get laugh at if you do something stupid and become the joker of the year..

I was at work yesterday..
A maid came out of KFC looking so stressed up...
She came to my counter and asked for chilli sauce!

I stoned at her face and went "huh? chilli sauce?"
She knew something was wrong...
She walked away and headed straight to......

SINGTEL TO ASK FOR CHILLI SAUCE!!

hahahahah!!!!!

I think her employer didn't instruct her well enough...
Maybe her employer did point to the "chilli sauce area" beside their table but the maid thought her employer was pointing out of KFC..

Poor her...

2009-10-07T22:12:00.002+08:00

School was alright...
Just as I thought...
I'm in the same class with the young birds...yes..the year 2s
Now I know how the year 3s felt back then when we're having sports physiology module..haha..
Exactly the same...gosh..

Damn..I just want to get this done and over with..!

2009-10-06T23:57:00.003+08:00

I just hope school's going to be ok this semester..
I don't ask for much...just "ok" will do...

Wow...kids are reading this stupid blog of mine...how fascinating..
Just don't try to mess around over here...
You wont want to know the consequences..

After hearing some information from that incident
I can't believe a stupid looking person needs to be reminded by someone who is younger..
Call yourself mature huh?
I wonder if you need to be reminded when comes to bath -.-

2009-10-04T01:30:00.004+08:00

Love this movie....especially the last story...wuhahaha...
4/5
Yeah..the last story brings up the rating

School's starting next Wednesday...
How fast is that?
Thank god..my wish really came true..
Finally get to be in the same class with Azimah...and....Beverly as well!
Awesome-ness...

2009-09-30T00:02:00.002+08:00

I sacrificed 2/3 of my sectional time just to accompany you all way Bugis to get your freaking job interview done...
I tried to cheer you up when you didn't get it
And what did you do?
Not a word of appreciation...but full of complains
What do you mean by adding salt to your wound?

Is it wrong to buy food home?
Daddy has been craving for those kuey..
Is it wrong to buy for him?
It's not that I didn't buy anything for you
I did asked
You told me you just had panadol, don't feel like eating the food
Is it wrong to joke?
Of all the things, why CB Kia?
Have you ever thought who gave birth to this CB Kia?

And wow..your headache can cure in a split second huh?
Perhaps the antidote to your headache is a phone call from a friend saying there's durians..
And again I say....WOW...

2009-09-28T20:03:00.002+08:00

Have been working from 10am to 10pm for three consecutive days and I really thank god it's finally over...
The joint in my right knee always give me problems and apart from that, it hurts after three days work
Kind of surprised though..
Wonder where I get the strength to tolerate three full days..
And how amazing is that?
I still get to hear F1 live..HAHA!
Shaiful called his friend who was there last night at the race..
He immediately passed me the phone
And yes ar! I heard them I heard them...!
The sound of the F1 cars!

Okok...chill Phylis

2009-09-23T20:18:00.003+08:00

A junior asked me yesterday when we happened to board the same train home after band practice...
"How come you're not close to Gabriel and the rest? I thought you're one of the clique. Why never hang out with them for supper?"

What a good question..
Sometimes I've been asking myself this question as well..

Then I told her...
All the while it's been like this since the start of year 1
I don't have a fixed clique

The people I'm used to close with are no longer here..
Not a single one left..

A dear friend of mine asked me a question as well...
"Why still bother to go for band prac since they had left?"
Hard for me to answer that as well seriously..

Now I've realised..
No matter how close or not close you are with this particular friend, whether you have a clique or two or more or none at all, when problems surface up, things will get really really ugly

My case for example..
When I'm stuck between two good friends A and B
I try to make things less ugly and at the same time, trying not to be a hypocrite

The main reason behind all the things I've done is because I don't want the both of them to make things worse by assuming each other's ugly intentions when both of them are already not in good terms

When A told me what B had done..I question B to clarify..and when B explains his/her intention and the truth behind all these..I correct A's thinking by telling him/her that B didn't do that at all and vice versa..

And what I get in return?
B thank me but his/her words seems sarcastic or was I thinking too much?
A is trying to make use of me when he/she is lonely and a dustbin to trash things in..
At the end of the day, it turns even uglier

Enough of friends stuff...
I'm thinking of closing myself up..

Here comes the family side..
Yes, daddy's return is a good thing..
Yes family reunion at last..
But things get uglier each day and needless to say, I'm stuck between my mum and dad as well

They're blaming each other on that spoilt brat's upbringing when she had done something wrong
"Your mum push all the blame on me when something happen to Felicia"
"Your dad blame me for not using the right way to communicate with you all"

What can I say?

"I'm a criminal in China and also a criminal at home..what's the difference? How can I gain trust from you all? You mum always tell those old folks when she suspect something"
"I didn't even say anything to your grandparents regarding your dad's affair with another woman..old people just love to assume stuff..he thought I told them"

What can I say?

"Did mummy say anything about me when you both go out together just now?"
"Did your daddy grumble anything to you about me?"

What can I say?!

Sometimes I just hate to be sensible..
I hate to grow up...
And above all that..why do I exist?

Did I adopt the wrong way to help?

And the funny part is..I can't even help myself..
Yes..there's many more things to rant about if I want to continue typing...

2009-09-22T00:39:00.001+08:00

It's been a week since I last hear from you

Yes, you did bother to tell me you're home at last..

But is that all?

I can even count how many sentences we have talked..

No...it shouldn't be like this...really

2009-09-21T01:04:00.003+08:00

I'm angry...
I'm really really really angry...

And I mean..very very...

Damn it...