It's near...it's really near..
Daddy's coming home soon..
What's gonna happen?
I really don't know..
Will it be like how it used to be?
Smelling those cigarettes smell whenever he smokes in the balcony?
Will I have to make a mug of milo with four pieces of bread for him every night?
Definitely more laundry to do..
More clothes to iron..
More clothes to keep..
Will I get used to it?

Looking back those times..
I realised that he's not even here throughout my entire poly life..
He wasn't there for my concert ever since I got into RPWS..
He wasn't there when I got into RP..
He wasn't there on my birthday, mummy's and sis's birthday, Christmas, Chinese New Year, etc..
Without his presence, I've been daddy's independent girl..
Yes..throughout this three years..
I even have to settle my own enrollment stuff all by myself..
I've never felt so stress before..
Sometimes I did ask myself, why am I going through this when I'm supposed to enjoy like all other teenagers should enjoy?
Yes, you guys may think I am a strong girl..
I may come off strong but that doesn't mean I'm really strong.
I wish I could cry at times..
But I know I can't..especially the beginning stage when my mum got into depression..
Because I know I can't fall when my mum's like this..
And I know it's hard on her...it's been more than ten years..these ten years..she hadn't been working..
She was a full time tai tai..
Now supporting this family alone with her own hands is really hard on her..
And me as well..
Roles have changed..
She became the husband and I'm the wife..
Yes..she work..I settle the chores at home (plus part time work as well)..
It's hard to maintain..
Worst still..my sis is not sensible enough...
Daddy's little spoilt brat...that what I call her
My mum told me this: "once your dad comes home..I want to tell him every single bad stuff your sis had done all these years to him"

I just hope everything's fine once he's back..

@ 12:37 AM