Alright..guess this will be my new blogskin
Have been giving me problems since I started changing it last night because none of the skins I've tried is user friendly
The codes are getting on my nerves too...rahh..

Anyway..
Many thoughts came to me last night..
It took me two hours to reflect and decide what I must do and change
Six months after my previous post on resolution..many things happened and I sort of lost count of it..
Well, let me recall some...

1.) Family matters - my dad's situation over at China somehow improve and then got worse. Shan't elaborate more

2.) Relationship with him - Declared game over because my trust and love got betrayed by him. That hurt me the most

3.) Friends' support received - Because of that, Yuting, ZiQi, Wei wei (ok..he now got annoyed whenever I mention about this matter..I know wei wei..I know..not all people got the patience to listen to this type of matter), Dilah, Eugene Phua, Cheng Wei, Mahesh, Hannah and Shirley are all there for me to keep me stand upright after we broke up.

4.) Friends' support received yet one by one left after that because of my change - yes...Quarrelled with some of them and I really regretted when one by one left me. Some of them lose patience on me because I poured out too much without knowing the limits and because of my change, I sometimes say harsh things without knowing how my close friends feel. I took things for granted.

5.) Relationship with my mum turned bad - Because of friend trouble, his matter and her naggings everyday, one day I couldn't tolerate anymore and then I flared up. I vent out my anger on her, shouted at her like nobody's business and quarrelled with her.

6.) Friends came back yet not really close to some of them anymore - yes..all came back yet some of them I just don't feel as close as before which make me regret even more. The more I felt that I shouldn't have quarrel with them at the very beginning. Not so outspoken anymore because after the incidents happened, I became more sensitive over what I say and sometimes, I don't even want to talk, thinking that I might hurt their feelings again.

After so many major things happened these six months..
I guess I must make a change
I can't take my close friends for granted and I should know my limits when I think I pour out problems too much. Like what ZiQi said, even if I say out my problems, some of them don't understand what I'm going through because they have not experience them before. And even if they understand what I'm going through, their concentration span is short. People will tend to get annoyed after a period of time. I should also care about my friends around me because I'm not the only one having so many problems.
Just want to say sorry to them if I've hurt them in one way or another, be it actions or words. I didn't mean to and I hope they understand and forgive me. And I must really thank those people who were there for me and cared for me. Especially Yuting, ZiQi and Dilah. Yuting came all the way to RP to deal with him as well and be there for me when I cried. ZiQi, we got even more close after the broke up, her endless care and her treats...I must really thank her. Thanks Dilah for doting me as a friend. Buying my christmas present, birthday present and some treats and many other stuff that she have done for me. Thank you all. =)

Labels: Reflection....and resolution?

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